A big smile spread across my face, accompanied by a quiet chuckle that was inaudible to anyone but me.
This was partly due to the fact that my child-like grin kept my lips closed and partly because I was in a noisy parking garage. The source of my joy was unexpected and a wonderful secret, at least until moments ago when I decided to share it with you.
Standing alone behind my car, I glanced one more time at the folded up empty shopping bags in the trunk of my car, and felt a shift in the emotions I was experiencing. As the glee transformed to pride, I closed the trunk and started back toward the hotel entrance.
As I walked, I was conscious of the weight of the shopping bag in my hand. It was a small but substantial weight that suddenly represented something very important to me. It was also representative of something that, until only moments ago while looking into the trunk of my car, I hadn’t thought about for years.
You see, the contents of my shopping bag were the results of my impromptu clothes shopping adventure earlier that day. When I returned to my hotel at the end of the day, I opened my trunk to retrieve the bag and noticed the folded up reusable shopping bags laying in the trunk.
This time, they were there for grocery shopping. But I was reminded of a time in my life when I used plastic grocery store bags to hide the fact that I bought my clothes from the plus size clothing store. I had completely forgotten about this!
If you struggle with an eating disorder and would like some help getting started with Creative Journaling to work through some of your challenges, consider joining me in my Creative Journaling for Recovery group on Facebook. We meet every day to journal, get creative and support one another.
More resources for anyone looking for more guidance or help with an eating disorder or disordered eating behaviors:
Project Heal (USA)