Now that I've been in treatment for several months, and have learned to practice more effective self-awareness, I can see the things that I commonly do to isolate myself. I've learned to understand that these behaviors are a part of what my eating disorder encourages me to do.
That little voice inside my head (the voice of my disorder - I call her Edie) knows when I'm feeling vulnerable and will seize that opportunity to try to get me to pull away from the people that I love. Edie knows that this behavior will make me feel worse and will deepen her relationship with me. She needs me to focus on her, and to hear her voice more often and with more volume than anyone else. If I turn down her volume, she is at risk of being eliminated. She needs me to believe the lies that she tells me so that I stay sick, and she can't convince me of her lies if I can't hear her telling them to me.Read More
According to the Celiac Disease Foundation, one out of every 100 people worldwide are effected by Celiac Disease. And there are just under 1% of the population of the world suffering from an eating disorder. So what are the chances of having both of these illnesses in one household?
Treatment for Binge Eating Disorder while in a relationship with someone who has Celiac Disease is a challenge to navigate.Read More
When I started treatment for Binge Eating Disorder, my husband had no clue how to help me. How could he know? He'd never been exposed to anyone in recovery from an eating disorder before. And to make matters worse, I was uneducated about it myself (I'd never been exposed to it either), so I couldn't even tell him what I needed from him for support.Read More
When you have and eating disorder it is not uncommon to lose touch with who you really are. The lies that the eating disorder tells you about yourself and how the world sees you can have a pretty dramatic effect on what you perceive to be your personal preferences. It can become difficult to discern between your true likes and dislikes and those of the version of yourself that is so interconnected with your eating disorder.Read More
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If you’ve never used a hashtag, this might not be the blog post for you. But, if you spend time perusing Instagram or Twitter, you might want to keep reading. I’d love to hear your opinions on this one.
One of the first things I did when I started treatment for my eating disorder was to take a break from social media.
It was quite abrupt. Like turning off a light switch. One day in late May I was posting, pretending all was great in my world, and the next day I just stopped.Read More
So, I guess this is it, is it? This is a full blown relapse. It feels like a colossal failure.
It feels hopeless, and lonely. It’s days full of that voice in my head rambling on about various things that she wants me to believe are true. That voice in my mind says such vicious things. She’s been with me for what feels like a lifetime. I call her Edie.
She’s the voice of my eating disorder, and she’s been reduced to a low rumble for some time now. I couldn’t even tell you exactly how long it’s been since her screams consumed my every thought. She may have been quiet for a while, but she didn’t leave me.Read More
My favourite part is, "I think this is a great book, and I think your idea behind it is inspiring."
In the past few weeks I've gone through the process of helping the design and editorial teams working on the journal with me to understand its purpose and to see my vision. I can't say enough great things about them over at Friesen Press. I am not sure what I expected before I started working with them, but it certainly wasn't the supportive and excited tone that I've received. I come away from each interaction with them feeling even more certain that this project is needed and will do what it is intended to do – help people who are struggling.Read More
My husband has Celiac Disease and I have Binge Eating Disorder. Life in our household is a delicate balancing act that, honestly, we don’t always do so well at.
When he was diagnosed over three years ago, my eating disorder was thriving inside me, undetected. It was the perfect storm. I had been through severe weight fluctuations time and time again over the course of the previous 23 years or so. But, I had no idea that the problem wasn’t with my body, it was with my mind.Read More
I’m a unicorn!
Okay, I know, that’s not actually true. I know I’m not so unique and magical that there is nobody else in the world like me. There are actually lots of folks out there who are like me in any number of ways. It’s not the individual traits that make me unique, it’s the combination that you’ll find in me that’s a bit different than most other people in my situation.Read More